This morning I received indirect criticism about a gift I recently gave. I was taken aback. I felt irritated. And, then I realized it didn't matter. I gave from the heart. The recipient is grateful. What was said doesn't even matter. The criticism gave me cause to consider gift giving. Why do I give gifts? Does the item express my heart? With Christmas around the corner, I am shaken by the desire to change the gifts I give.
I give to others because I care about them.
I rarely know what to get people.
My gifts usually don't reflect my feelings. My gifts are tokens of affection, often bought in haste because I am under a deadline to meet a special occasion. I don't get something for everyone I wish I could. I am often too late for special events and I miss celebrating someone special all together. None of it -a bought gift or a forgotten gift- reflects the love I have for friends and family.
I want this year's Christmas to be different.
I don't know how I am going to change.
I spent the morning listening to Christmas music, thinking about gift giving and the reason that I want to give to others during the holidays.
I want to show my kids how to give.
They need to give this year. They need to see me giving from my heart.
I don't know what to do differently. My heart aches for change. I want to show more love to those I know. It's plain and simple but exceedingly difficult during the busy holiday season.
I wonder, how can I celebrate giving with my kids?
I wonder, can my Christmas shopping be more than a checklist?
I'm praying over this and looking for ideas. Let me know what you do- big or small- to keep gift giving centered on the meaning behind it.
I want my gifts to be signatures of my love.